well as the the title suggests this is my question. the last time i was albe to long on this account was in late november early december or so. like everytime i tried it would just go back to the log in screen >< i actually remebered to ask my friend if i can use his comp to see i could log on this and WOW i could. lol, i'm guess da either some how blocked my isp sever form me logging in or its just some wired glitch. but the scariest part is i have 407 freaking Messages!!!! >< so much to look at >< lol. And if i cant continue to log on my own comp i cant post new pics oh well gues i got to look for another art place.

Well it that time of year again, and I'm hungry, mashed potatoes, creamed corn, biskets, ham, roast, turkey, carrots, peas, and my favorite, SHRIMP COCTAIL!!! I honestly think this is one on the best hoildays, cause you can pgi out and no one will care. i think I'll try to break my old record of three big plates of food and go for four. just have to remind myslef not to eat so quickly like I always do....(man I surprised i haven't choked yet....) Any ways I wish every on DA a happy holiday, and if you don't celibrate it, i hope you have a happy long weekend.

Tim

So what your favorite holiday food??

well my new mood on life is Fuck It. Its time i take a stand for myself. no point crying anymore because its pointless and it wont get me anywhere. i need to focus on wht the hell i'm going to do. lets see my job, going better getting more hours now, and college stuff, i'm looking at Henry Cogswell, Northwest College of Art (NCA), and Clover Park Tech. Lets see the positives and negatives of each college. First Henry Cogswell, well i might have a place to live, propably not but oh well. and i might be able to get transferred to the disney store up in everett. the negative is, well i would be living with my, ex. and i'm not so sure if that would be healthy. Northwest college of art. well i would be able to studie Fine art, which the other 2 colleges don't offer. and i love getting my hands on anything i can make something with, maybe i should go into that field of art instead of graphic art?... negatives, have to figure a place to live, and most likely a new job. Clover park, ther are two programs in which i'm intressed in, the graphic art ans the professional pilot course. and if i get back in and i take the pro pilot classes thats means i can go in as a pilot and get automatic oficer, which means more money for me. and if i got there can mostly like keep my job. the neagtive is would would most likely be living with my parents. I got three choices, still trying to figure out which tho. i'm more leaning towards NCA. but i don't know. what do you guys think??

well lets see...i got a job at the disney store, so far i've only worked one day...last friday, and i made a grand total of about 17 bucks for the week. and i wok again tomarrow from 7- 10. looks like i'm going to have to find a new job, hopefully chuck 'E' cheese is still hiring. other then that i lay around the house doing nothing, i sleep till 4 in the afternoon, i don't want to do anything with anyone. and i've completely trashed my room. yep i'm depressed, god life sucks. The only thing that i even think about is one person. but i have to try and keep moving on...got to go up to the school get referrals, got to bug the congressmen for that letter, and got to find my discharge papper work and give it to the recruiting station. but i got no motivation to do so, so its going to be a while. And if i don't get back in, i honestly have no idea what i'm going to do, i want to goto college, but im not sure if i will be able to aford it. i know my parents arn't going to help pay, cause they can't. in 4 to 5 years i'll be able to aford it because i'll be able to use the 90 grand that i have in my name thats locked in a CD will expire in that time frame, but i don't want to wait that long, i just don't want to do anything, it just feels pointless, because no matter how hard i work for something positive to happen in my life, i loose it all. my life is a pointless hole that should be used as a land fill.